Ambition.

Perish every fond ambition;
All i've sought or hoped or known.
Yet how rich is my condition!
God and heaven, are still mine own.

This stanza was shared to me by one of the closest friends i have, despite the recentness of our acquaintances. Having shared many experiences together within this short few months - volunteer work, walking around the Geylang redlight vicinity and even venturing to China with me - i can safely say that i'm truly blessed with a profoundly genuine confidant. The words of this hymn resonate poignantly within me; emotionally compelling me to submit myself to God.

My dream of following in the footsteps of Dr. Lai Yong, and the several others who i've met along my life's journey, Dr. Loh, Dr. Liow, Dr. Ling Ling and Dr. Tan are such examples, to serve as a doctor in the poorer countries, is a dream i'd not give up so easily on. People tell me it's a noble ambition, but what's the implication of this? Is this more noble than the doctor who heals even though first going in for money? Or more than the lawyer who fights lawsuits for justice? Or more than the cleaner who sweeps the streets? i do not think so. Hence i do not wish to claim to be or to be seen as noble, but only as a servant wishing to serve. i'm seeking to do it for God, and not for men, anyhow.

That being said, all happens within the will of God. As the hymn goes, "Perish every fond ambition, all i've sought, or hoped, or known". If i should seek anything, it should be thus: one thing i ask of the LORD, and one thing i seek. To gaze upon the beauty of God, as better is one day in the house of God; to be His doorkeeper and servant, than a thousand days elsewhere.